Foresight

Not to be confused with foreskin.

As I have predicted, we can't stay away from eachother. Right now she is on vacation, gives us time to think, and to miss eachother, it's good. We came to terms with eachother's differences and she's able to just relax and push out all the shitty shit that's been happening lately.

Myself, I don't know. I don't think I can be with somebody who's going through the same shit that I did when I was their age. I see so much of myself in her, and I hated myself back then, I still do, but I love her and everything that comes with that.

I can see that when she is older, when she has experience the same revelations that I have, she will be a very good companion, and that we will be able to truly have fun in this world, but right now, it's like she's shrouded in problems, and she can't see past her own problems to realize mine.

I guess I don't help much, I make it seem like it doesn't matter what I think, because I'll always be there, but I won't. I can wait, but not if I keep getting my hopes up just to be let down. I don't get out much, so I don't exactly have hordes of women at my beck and call, but if I meet somebody who's already ready to handle the additional burden of pleasing another human, then I might have to say goodbye.