Alright, it's come to my attention that while I was with her, I was constantly pining for her company, like some sort of drug.
I don't do drugs, I don't do addiction very well.
As soon as it was decided we were to be friends, it seems like I became happy again. We both have shit going on, so I'm going to wait until we figure out our lives before I allow us to even try again.
I suggest to anybody who is reading, don't date until you have your own life straightened out, otherwise you put a burden on those you love.
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Alright
I'm going to stop making direct blows to my girlfriend(?) and just fucking keep my opinions general.
I can't keep my fucking mouth shut. I don't know when to stop talking, and because of that, this is the third time we've broke up. I'm not even going to bother making my posts specific.
Man, I went from consoling her to pretty much terrorizing her in just a few short sentences...I didn't mean to...but somehow I fucking did...and I KNEW that I was going too far and I didn't fucking stop. I'm so fucking blind.
If you're reading this, I still love you, I fucked up and hope you can forgive me, and I know your Papa still has a good decade in him at least.
I can't keep my fucking mouth shut. I don't know when to stop talking, and because of that, this is the third time we've broke up. I'm not even going to bother making my posts specific.
Man, I went from consoling her to pretty much terrorizing her in just a few short sentences...I didn't mean to...but somehow I fucking did...and I KNEW that I was going too far and I didn't fucking stop. I'm so fucking blind.
If you're reading this, I still love you, I fucked up and hope you can forgive me, and I know your Papa still has a good decade in him at least.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Revisions
I come to the realization that this blog will have few, if any viewers at all, but I know my girlfriend who will remain unnamed for the sake of anonmity, will always be loyal to me and my views, and therefore must apologize to her for my last blog post.
I still find females narcissistic, and I think I always will, but there's a certain amount of give that needs to be present.
I know I am very clingy, and I assume it puts people off, it has been confirmed when she almost broke up with me over it. I am learning the balance between space and closeness, and even one day along the road, if we must part ways, I will never forget the lessons she taught me, and the fun we had.
I still find females narcissistic, and I think I always will, but there's a certain amount of give that needs to be present.
I know I am very clingy, and I assume it puts people off, it has been confirmed when she almost broke up with me over it. I am learning the balance between space and closeness, and even one day along the road, if we must part ways, I will never forget the lessons she taught me, and the fun we had.
Monday, July 19, 2010
Eugh
It's recently come to my realization that women are narcissistic by nature.
Whether they have high or low self esteem there's always that fucking sense that they feel holier than thou, and always have to make the fucking decisions.
Where have men gone that we're wearing the fucking collar when it comes to relationships, us who was made first and women as a counterpart? I agree with equality, I am chivilrous to a fault, but for fucks sake, can I find one fucking female with the common sense to realize equality doesn't mean you turn a nigger into a prince?
I'm working my ASS off trying to find a fucking balance between caring and giving space, and constantly I get stood up for reasons I'm beginning to consider are not even valid.
Maybe I'm too nice, maybe I'm too fucking good for a woman. All I know is, bitches like abuse until they're like fucking 30, it's just too bad they can never see it.
Whether they have high or low self esteem there's always that fucking sense that they feel holier than thou, and always have to make the fucking decisions.
Where have men gone that we're wearing the fucking collar when it comes to relationships, us who was made first and women as a counterpart? I agree with equality, I am chivilrous to a fault, but for fucks sake, can I find one fucking female with the common sense to realize equality doesn't mean you turn a nigger into a prince?
I'm working my ASS off trying to find a fucking balance between caring and giving space, and constantly I get stood up for reasons I'm beginning to consider are not even valid.
Maybe I'm too nice, maybe I'm too fucking good for a woman. All I know is, bitches like abuse until they're like fucking 30, it's just too bad they can never see it.
Sunday, July 18, 2010
More corporate nonsense
YouTube man, king of pissing me off.
Lately they've been cracking down, HARD, on people with copyright material.
I've been getting at least 2 videos on every refresh in my Recommended videos...that just simply aren't there, because they were removed for that shit.
I just wish anybody would realize you can just quote their fair use clause and get it restored as if nothing happened.
Fucking idiots.
Lately they've been cracking down, HARD, on people with copyright material.
I've been getting at least 2 videos on every refresh in my Recommended videos...that just simply aren't there, because they were removed for that shit.
I just wish anybody would realize you can just quote their fair use clause and get it restored as if nothing happened.
Fucking idiots.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Facebook.
*inhale*
Fuck.
So I guess I'm joining the millionbillion people who use Failbook. Not using my real name, fuck, not even using my internet handle, but I do like seeing the various things a few of my friends are up to.
When I had a falling out with my girlfriend, I kept looking at her page to see if she said anything bad about me, it's fucking addicting man!
Like the title says, one step closer to selling out to social networking.
I really didn't want to because of all the people I hate that use it, but it's pretty easy for trolling under an alias.
Fuck.
So I guess I'm joining the millionbillion people who use Failbook. Not using my real name, fuck, not even using my internet handle, but I do like seeing the various things a few of my friends are up to.
When I had a falling out with my girlfriend, I kept looking at her page to see if she said anything bad about me, it's fucking addicting man!
Like the title says, one step closer to selling out to social networking.
I really didn't want to because of all the people I hate that use it, but it's pretty easy for trolling under an alias.
Monday, July 5, 2010
La
I've been writing walls of text to my as of now girlfriend and my as of always best friend...the topic drove towards this blog I never update due to lack of traffic. Ideas floated around whether I could get my snazzy attitude posted in the newspaper or some such form of media.
Really, do I even care to work so hard to pique the interest of a medium which is dying?
Our world, ever evolving like a game of Jenga, rising higher and higher, forgetting its roots, then finally crumbling beneath its own zeal and toppling back to the bottom.
I forsee this happening to our world.
2012...I don't know what, if anything will happen, but I assume something similar to my Jenga clause. Perhaps the oil wells will run dry; cars unable to run any longer. Will man be able to wipe his brow and walk, or crumble under the thought of having to work for anything.
Honestly, I hope the world changes drastically, even if I lose all electricity, I will continue this blog on paper, perhaps I could become some form of martyr, predicting the Great Outage of 2012.
This is the late evening after my possible break up with the first girl I've ever cared for, and it seems my tears have already run dry. I don't think I even shed any.
Humanity as a whole is uncaring of the feelings of others, but as some form of shame pretends to be. Political correctness...what does that even mean? Shitty form of chivalry. Sure you call them "middle eastern people" but shouldn't they just be "people"? That black man over there...yeah I suppose it's a good way to point out a difference.
If racism were not to exist, things would be very different. Religion causes wars. This is a fact. It's those differences in opinion, not fact, that make people fight. Racism is a way to ward those enemies away! I'm not saying to kick the next coloured person in the teeth, but don't fall prey to this stupid sense of self satisfation next time you help a cab driver count his American money, he's in OUR country taking OUR jobs, and soon enough, America will throw caution to the winds and elect Hitler's great great (etc) grandson or something! Truly that sounds uneducated, and it damn well is, but really, can we trust people who's people bombed our country? The same religion that deemed those two towers as some fucking sort of opposition to their culture?
I can understand not everybody is a terrorist. Be kind to those around you, treat them as humans, but don't leave yourself wide open. Prejudice keeps us safe. If you see a man with a bulge in his pocket, it's okay to assume he has a gun, watch him, but don't jump him and start beating his face.
-Edited for accuracy
Really, do I even care to work so hard to pique the interest of a medium which is dying?
Our world, ever evolving like a game of Jenga, rising higher and higher, forgetting its roots, then finally crumbling beneath its own zeal and toppling back to the bottom.
I forsee this happening to our world.
2012...I don't know what, if anything will happen, but I assume something similar to my Jenga clause. Perhaps the oil wells will run dry; cars unable to run any longer. Will man be able to wipe his brow and walk, or crumble under the thought of having to work for anything.
Honestly, I hope the world changes drastically, even if I lose all electricity, I will continue this blog on paper, perhaps I could become some form of martyr, predicting the Great Outage of 2012.
This is the late evening after my possible break up with the first girl I've ever cared for, and it seems my tears have already run dry. I don't think I even shed any.
Humanity as a whole is uncaring of the feelings of others, but as some form of shame pretends to be. Political correctness...what does that even mean? Shitty form of chivalry. Sure you call them "middle eastern people" but shouldn't they just be "people"? That black man over there...yeah I suppose it's a good way to point out a difference.
If racism were not to exist, things would be very different. Religion causes wars. This is a fact. It's those differences in opinion, not fact, that make people fight. Racism is a way to ward those enemies away! I'm not saying to kick the next coloured person in the teeth, but don't fall prey to this stupid sense of self satisfation next time you help a cab driver count his American money, he's in OUR country taking OUR jobs, and soon enough, America will throw caution to the winds and elect Hitler's great great (etc) grandson or something! Truly that sounds uneducated, and it damn well is, but really, can we trust people who's people bombed our country? The same religion that deemed those two towers as some fucking sort of opposition to their culture?
I can understand not everybody is a terrorist. Be kind to those around you, treat them as humans, but don't leave yourself wide open. Prejudice keeps us safe. If you see a man with a bulge in his pocket, it's okay to assume he has a gun, watch him, but don't jump him and start beating his face.
-Edited for accuracy
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